I spent the afternoon watching Tangled. I live firmly in the Tangled is better than Frozen camp. Sorry Princess Elsa fans, I enjoy Rapunzel, her magic hair and her floating lanterns. Despite how excited I am about becoming a mother, there is a lot of nervousness. I really didn't think pregnancy would be possible for us. In January, my fibroid (Tom) degenerated (basically got way to big for it's blood supply) and I was hospitalized for 5 days with severe pain. Based on it's location and a few other things, my OB was concerned that we would have issues conceiving. When I followed-up with my OB in early February, we were discussing the possibility of looking into IVF if we weren't pregnant by November. You can imagine how surprised my OB was when I called in late February to let her know we had gotten a positive pregnancy test. We've been high risk since the beginning which always causes an increase in stress in pregnancy, I held my breath the first few ultrasounds hoping that this little one was viable and had a heart beat. Never in my wildest dreams did I imagine though that being high risk would land me resident status in Mount Sinai. As you can imagine, I have had a lot of time to sit around and think in here. One big question is what if being a parent is not everything I dreamed of and imagined, but then again, what if it is? What if it's better? I am so excited to meet her and get to know her. The next 9 days are going to be torture, like Christmas Eve x 100.
The past few days have been uneventful to say the least. I've wandered the halls more than I usually do because you can only sit so long watching Netflix and reading. I will regret that statement in a few months when I will yearn to have time to sit and do nothing, but these days are getting harder to make it through. There are a lot more permanent but temporary residents here now, a lot due in December. It makes me thankful I only have a few more days and we could potentially be home for Thanksgiving!
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